Rage

I'm enraged.. but I can't really focus on why. I just had a big ass fight with my mom and sister over dinner when i returned from boxing. Was generally in a good mood but when I got in the door and sat down to eat, they began bitching about me not putting my used clothes in the laundry bin. I see their problem, yeah i mess the bathroom up but this morning, monday morning, i was really in a hurry and i had to shave and crap - so i didnt have time to do or even consider doing it.

What happened? Well i agreed upon me having to clean up, and then i asked them to stop talking about it cause i could just feel my rage'o'meter gauge building up. But it kept coming up, and apparently im not really in the mood to take on critique today - so when they sat their saying "Oh but your so negative lately and so aggresive" i just popped.. i freaked out, told them to shut the fuck up and leave me the fuck alone.. I mean seriously, i cant pre-clean up my used clothes for tomorrow.

Not really feeling appreciated atm either.. it's a lame whine yeah but my popularity'feelin is sorta danglin' downwards.. I should just brighten up but can't quite seem to feel content.. oO

Right.. ehm.. yeah

I dont even know where to start

I guess i should be happy, but im not? So why is that? Why the hell do i get these temporary dips in my "rollercoaster" ?

Right now im pretty sure why.. I don't really feel loved by anyone, it sounds fckin gay i know but im serious. How the hell am i gonna explain my entire life situation over a blog? oh my god..

Blaaaaah.. hmm.. ill write some more when i can focus my thoughts and rly find out what im trying to say, or.. eh.. whine about :p